Blog – YWAM Tyler

The Day I Turned Around

Written by Rose | 19 Aug 2022

We are so proud of our students here at YWAM Tyler. Please read Rose's story of how God set her free from self-harm and a slow suicide. God is so kind and so gentle to lead us from our dark situations to places of freedom, and being able to minister to others. 

Before being saved, I was in and out of treatment centers, on and off of drugs, putting myself in deadly situations, searching for love and validation through people that never ceased to disappoint me.

I have been homeless, and I’ve been abused in every way imaginable to the point of not wanting to be in this world anymore. My whole life has been a series of unfortunate events while on the search for love.

Every adventure, every endeavor, every quest, every breath I took was an outcry for love. “Why is the love of man not enough to fill this hole in my soul?” I would ponder this  question every day.

I came to the conclusion that I was just too damaged, and with the help of my ex-demons, I decided I did not deserve to be alive. I stopped eating. I stopped taking care of myself. I began harming myself again.

A slow suicide, they call it. I woke up in the hospital, where the staff called my mom, who I had not seen in eight years, but had been spiritually warring for me every day.

By the grace of God, I lived. I promised God on that day that I would now be His living sacrifice and tell everyone what He did for me. He found me when I was lost. He loved me when I didn't even know the real meaning of love.

He is the love I have been looking for my whole life. It is now my life's mission to give the gift of His love to others. There is no other love like His.

You can gain greater freedom in Christ, just like Rose has, by participating in a DTS (Discipleship Training School).