Seeking Love

What I tried almost killed me.

We are so proud of our students here at YWAM Tyler. Please read Rose's story of how God set her free from self-harm and a slow suicide. God is so kind and so gentle to lead us from our dark situations to places of freedom, and being able to minister to others. 

Before being saved, I was in and out of treatment centers, on and off of drugs, putting myself in deadly situations, searching for love and validation through people that never ceased to disappoint me.

I have been homeless, and I’ve been abused in every way imaginable to the point of not wanting to be in this world anymore. My whole life has been a series of unfortunate events while on the search for love.

Every adventure, every endeavor, every quest, every breath I took was an outcry for love. “Why is the love of man not enough to fill this hole in my soul?” I would ponder this  question every day.

I came to the conclusion that I was just too damaged, and with the help of my ex-demons, I decided I did not deserve to be alive. I stopped eating. I stopped taking care of myself. I began harming myself again.

A slow suicide, they call it. I woke up in the hospital, where the staff called my mom, who I had not seen in eight years, but had been spiritually warring for me every day.

By the grace of God, I lived. I promised God on that day that I would now be His living sacrifice and tell everyone what He did for me. He found me when I was lost. He loved me when I didn't even know the real meaning of love.

He is the love I have been looking for my whole life. It is now my life's mission to give the gift of His love to others. There is no other love like His.

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You can gain greater freedom in Christ, just like Rose has, by participating in a DTS (Discipleship Training School).

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